What's wrong with me? i gotta wait a while and try to find the real me. The main problem is that i'm to, man whorish, i guess you
could say. I try to find real love, but for me love is just a word i use offten.
DOn't know why i use it, but i'll figure that out when i try to find myself. I'm in love with a girl and i know it. We've dated before, I
saw her today at school, and when i was talking to her i wanted to cry. I know i love her still and i don't really care what ppl say
about me. I might be a "Man Whore", but it just means i'm looking for that one special person. I met up with an old girlfriend a
couple of dasys ago and i thought i would be happy bein with her, but i figure why be with her. I'll never be with her for a while. I
never really see her.
But if i was to date my ex: from last year, i think i might be happier, I love this girl with all my heart. And i don't think she feels
the same way about me. I guess this letter/Journal is to get all my "Feelings about someone Out". I love this girl with all my heart. 1
problem is that i don't think that she loves me the same. So, i think imma just have Sarah talk to her for me. Since there good
friends and all. My feelings for meghan will never go away. She was basicly my first and only love. I know it sounds stupid, because i
dated ALOT of girls b4. But i think that she is perfect.
I might seem like a weak bitch about this but it's how i feel. I hope me and her can work out our diff.'s and make things better, I
guess it don't really help when my Ex. is in my Biology class. I thought i loved her to, but i guess it was just lust. i mean we're
friends now, like i am with all my friends. I guess what i'm saying and it's pretty fuckin Obvious. i'm still in love with Meghan Taylor
Wilkes. Always have and always will. and i can garentie that if i told her how i felt she wouldn't do shit. Because i'm pretty sure that
she isn't in love with me n e more. But that's ok. Because i'm in love with her still.
I remember when summer first started that she wanted to be a "FreeSpirit", and i thought that it was kool ya know. Because it's
Summer, and errone want's to have fun. But i made the Fuckin WORST Mistake of my life when i said "I think we should take a
break.." Well i'm pepared to tell her wheather she likes it or not, that i still love her. If i get shut down and she says that she don't
like me like that n e more. Then there ain't notta i can do about it. Well thats bout it.
~**~Ryan~**~
AKA ~Hoaggie~
